Life…..Sigh!….

Here I am unemployed. Even after working for 2 years I switched my profession from computer engineering to animation. I studied animation and then got married. So even after I actually switched my profession I am yet to start working in it. And it has been almost 2 years that I am staying in America on a dependent visa. Now when I say anybody I am an animator I wonder to myself “Really?!! am I?!” I have not even felt how it is to work in any studio.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            Choosing a profession can put so much pressure I had never known!  All I know that i changed my path because my parents had told me to always do something which I would love doing. And I definitely was not loving my IT job! It just wasnt me! Then what exactly did I want? What was it that I could do which would not feel like a heavy job to me? Animation had all the artistic feel to it and my 2 and half years of studying film making and animation was the most enjoyable and educative time of my life. And I knew that I have chosen the right path. Now suddenly after a gap of 2 years I feel distant to everything. Do i still want to go for animation or do I want to do something else.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    When I turn back from where I stand I see my juniors reaching heights. I see my friends having kids and starting a family. People have just dashed ahead it seems. And I am still standing at the position where I again dont know what I really want to do in life. All i know is I want to do something I would enjoy. And somehow I dont have an answer to that question again. In these 2 years of staying home and just performing the duties of a housewife i feel my skills have rusted. If I spend time shining them at what time will I do a job properly or rather reach any height?                                                                                                                                                                                                                            I believed that everything that happens is for a reason. But now I am a little scared that everybody is going ahead of me and I will be just left behind still thinking of what is it that I want to achieve. Too many questions and no answers yet from life. I wonder when I would get a clear view!!

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A moment

Sometimes it just feels like the whole world is acting against you. I have tried to keep my patience and tried to do something in life. But  failures …. just break the heart.

After 2 years of working I left my job trying to do something which I would love. I joined an animation college and enjoyed studying there for 2 and half years. Got married and came to USA.  I had to manage without doing any work because I was in a dependent visa. But I could study.. So I applied for a college. And today i got a reply that I didnt get through the course I wanted but they could review me for another course, which i dont want. There has been a gap in my studies and work and i feel like I just dont know anything at all! That I have forgotten everything I studied.  I feel scared that I would end up doing nothing. That I have got used to doing nothing but my household chores which take up most of my day! I really want to do something but its fear that keeps me back.

Life is so uncertain. My life is hanging between going back to my hometown and running after jobs which trust me is quite a headache there.  Try to get into some other sort of education which is so costly that the moment I write this I just wipe away that thought. There is also a chance that my husband gets to go to UK and I could work there … if I get any! Its like so many choices are just spread across and when I stand and look I feel nothing will fall in my lap and everything will just vanish. Almost 1 and half years of mostly staying at home and acting as “the perfect ” wife .. I am bored. I do not have the eligibility to work and neither am I getting a college.

Well.. just a bit depressing for me. When I look back and see all the time that I have wasted doing nothing and procrastinating. I wont stop trying though.. I do believe that whatever has to happen best will ultimately happen. Its just sometimes I feel being sad can be justified! But I want to dream big and achieve and it looks like it will take a lot of time. I just hope things fall into place.

Maggi!!

So many many recipes online!! Everytime I get bored I just google recipes and my God the numbers I get!! From the most complicated to the curious looking and easy ones the number one can find on the internet is unbelievable.  So I thought I would also try and post something on food!! Now nothing fancy… just something very easy !! I will write about ‘Maggi’!!!!!!

Now maggi noodles is something you will get in any Asian store in the Indian food section. Nowadays they have come up with many flavors but the favorite remains “Maggi Masala”. It is the tastiest and memorable food that I have! I remember having Maggi noodles when I was just a tiny tot. Indian students will be familiar with making maggi late at night at hostels!  Its just something which is so easy and filling and tasty!

So here I go! There are many many ways of making Maggi noodles.The most easiest one is mentioned behind the Maggi packet so i will tell you about the one I make most. Veggie maggi!

 

Maggi-Masala

For 1 person serving you will need                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                           – Half onion chopped

– Half tomato chopped

– 1 small cup chopped green bell pepper

– 1 small cup of peas

– 2 green chilies chopped

–   chopped coriander leaves

– pinch of white salt and black salt

–  pinch of pepper powder

– one brick of maggi noodle

METHOD

–  Take 2 tablespoons of oil in a deep bottom pan. After the oil is hot add chilies and onion to it and saute.

– When the onion becomes translucent add the rest veggies i.e tomatoes, bell pepper and peas( you can also add other vegetables like potatoes, carrots, cauliflower all cut in small pieces).

–  Add a little white salt and mix well.

– After 5 mins add 250ml of water. Once the water starts to boil add the Maggi Masala to it and mix. Break the maggi noodle bricks into 2 parts and add it to the mixture. Mix it and after 4 5 mins when the noodles become a      little soft you can try to separate  the noodle bricks into loose noodles. You will start smelling the delicious maggi you are making!!

– Add a pinch of black salt and black pepper to it and mix. It will take about 5 to 10 mins for the maggi to get done… You can add more water if you think you need it a little soupy. Garnish with coriander leaves and serve  hot!

You can even add scrambled egg to this and make egg maggi!!  Do get a packet of Maggi Noodles and try it!! There are numerous variations that you can do in maggi ! So give it a try!!

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(Few pics from the internet!!)

Do share your maggi if you make!!! Enjoyyyy!!!!

The Friendship Graph

Today I want to give a thought to friendship. I am not very old neither am I young.  And at this stage I feel that making new friends has become difficult. I had lots when i was in school and college. It seemed to my family that I had too  many friends. And I did feel rich that way!  Till I was studying my friend circle was excellent. Then I joined work. Ofcourse I made new friends there but my old friends did take a step back in priority, although we were connected by social media. I left my job and started some higher education. Lo and behold I had new and many friends again. After I passed out I got married. I came to USA and living the life as a housewife was kind of a very “sometimes happy sometimes irritating” feeling. For few months I knew no one here except for few of my husband’s friends. Then I joined a dance class and made 2 3 friends there.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            I message my old friends sometimes and realize that all of them are in a different stream of life now. Married, having kids, going after a dream job etc.And even though I am connected through social media i do not feel that connected. I dont know what is going on in there lives and get updated when they put up pictures and status message on the internet. The two three friends I have are busy doing something or the other. I feel the bonding I used to have in college or work is absolutely absent now in my life. This decreasing graph of friends in real life and increasing online friends isn’t helping much! I miss my friends many times and wonder if they also feel that life has moved on too fast leaving good old relations behind. Why does it become difficult to make friends at a later stage in life? Or is it just because right now i dont have a job so I dont get to meet many people. Which is why I have this feeling?                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    I get jealous when I see a picture of a friend with many other friends travelling somewhere or meeting up. Guess friends are really important and it does get difficult to find them later in life. Many of my friends now have groups of friends who are friends of their husbands! And I never see them with there own set of old friends. Husband’s friends become more important than own old friends. After my marriage I could not make many plans with the friends I made here because all there husbands would probably have plans. I miss being with friends who would just be ready to join in and plan something. Guess that’s how life goes. I sound very depressed!!! Well I am just missing my friends and just want to say cheers to people who have held their friendship bonds tightly and keep doing so regardless of how life goes on! Kudos!