Keep At It.


I know its been a long gap. There are so many who dont continue. And I was among them too. But, I will try to post atleast a single line in few days just to keep up with the world.

I followed my dreams, i started my dream job…..i am in the movie making industry..and the movie i worked for won an Oscar. I cannot describe the feeling. I feel so elated that after arduous struggles and not knowing where my life is going, I am exactly where I wanted to be. Happy.

Never stop following your passion and dreams no matter how hard the road is.

Keep trying and you will get definitely get it. As Paulo Coelho says in his book “The Alchemist”, the whole universe conspires to give you what you actually want.

And its true.


Urge to Write

I have been pondering over a thought for quite some time now. I wish to write a book. Just a simple travel memoir. But it seems that starting to write is an issue. I open my word document and stare at it. I end up telling myself I need to read some travel books to learn how to write them. I go over the internet click some links here and there and I am back to where I was. The stare. There are so many good points on how to write, which I have noted mentally. Should there be a “how to write” when all i want is to jot them down and make it in a presentable manner.  There is no need for me to emphasize on marketing. It will be a big day when I just write it! So all you guys out there, I have a request. Instead of me being drowned by millions and zillions of links on how to write, could you help me out by pointing out some major dos and don’ts? That ‘s all! Guess it could help few other people who wish to write but are stuck right at the first word.! Cheers guys!

Jobs etc…

Well, suddenly i feel that I am doing justice to the name of my blog! These really are confessions I need to make to myself. Keeping thoughts inside me doesnt seem to be of any good. Surprisingly I am not sharing my thoughts with anyone. And look, how easy it is for me to pen down my nuances here. Not being bothered by thinking who will read my thoughts! Seems to be magic.

If any of you have seen Harry Potter, then you should recall something called as a Pensieve.                                                                                                              dumbledore.

For those who don’t know what it is, a pensieve is a  magical device which can store memories. And when needed we can view these memories. I really wish this could be true! So many threads of memories jammed up in the head. A pensieve would definitely make the brain light! I guess for us writing could be our Pensieve. Ok… now for some grief pent up inside. So hear i pour them.

I came back to India after 2 years. Things seem to have changed. Prices,polution,population,noise, and I can go on. Now my friends tell me “Badi aayi America waali”( dont act like an American!) Now after 2 months of staying here i have got used to everything so no more of that sentence.I always say to myself that confidence comes from within. And the only person who can help me is myself. So its important to have faith in oneself. I have forgotten what I had studied 2 years ago.So right now I am doing a recap. When I came here I was all into getting a job mood. But I realised that I should gather up my studies a bit.  Now my husband earns a decent sum of money. Recently he has been talking about trying to do something of his own and thinking about what side job he can do to pay off the bills, loans…..everything. I am unable to tell him that I am utterly disappointed in myself for not getting a job yet. Sometimes I feel I will not be able to do anything. This whole time my parents, good people , books, told  me that we should all do what we love to do. I dont know why right now I feel lost. My friends have reached heights and positions in their jobs. Where as I am still the same state of confusion as to what exactly is it that I love doing, which could be my job. All these thoughts just because i dont have a job yet. Everybody around me seems to be making money doing anything. But just because I have stopped doing anything and searching to do something I would love,is causing me to lose confidence in myself. My friends in America believe that I would definitely reach heights. My parents tell me that it is okay to forget stuff and everything will be fine. My husband believes that I would probably get a job when I am ready.

I stay at home now trying to recollect my bits. And somehow everyday my day ends up in attending to daily chores. Because we have rented a house, it seems to me that there are endless problems in the house which are taking up my time. Plumbers, electricians saying they would come but ending up coming at a time I would just have started my studies. Days wasted just to get things fixed. Utterly disappointed with the way things are working here. The sole time I can give to my work gets to just 4 5 hours and that is absolutely nothing. Being unable to properly do anything, many times I just feel very sad. I just feel I am not trying enough to get a job so that I could help my husband.

Still, I am trying to be positive somehow and planning to make the day go better. There are many things to learn from life. At first I felt that my life is the same after marriage as it was before. But let me put a break there!! It isn’t the same. Hoping for a better time to come. Just a phase which I guess many people may be going through. So people … there it is my crazy, perhaps temporary thoughts. My pensieve is full.

From an Indian to Everybody

Today I saw a movie called “Hundred Foot Long Journey”. It is one of the few Indo English movies I have seen recently. Talking about the story of the movie I think it was a good one. I felt the movie got stretched at the end but it was ok.  

  What made me write this post today isnt about reviewing the movie. Its something to do with how my country has been depicted.Since the movie  “Slumdog Millionaire”, which was a very nicely crafted movie, I feel the poverty in India has been used too much to depict the country. I mean whats with showing all the slums and crowded streets and everything that doesnt make us very proud? Every place has something which is good and bad. There are movies where introducing India has opening shots like showing only the slum areas, living in dilapidated  places, stray animals everywhere, poor children and i could just go on. Well agreed that we are a nation which needs a lot of developing to do, but why cant you show the places which are beautiful! We do have very clean places and 5 star hotels! 

The movie Hundred Foot Long Journey also showcased from the very first shot the immensely crowded streets of a place and people shouting. A dialogue which says that the chef who has risen from the “gutter” or drain made me feel very very angry. I feel that the way my country is being projected is someway not right. And I dont want the audience to feel connected to it because of the wrong reasons. We have age old culture and modernization all together here. Instead of portraying the side which is not so good I really hope that all the good qualities are shown instead.  As I said there is a good side and a bad side to every place we live in. So I hope people see the beauty of my country instead and learn about all the wonderful culture we are so proud of.


Here I am unemployed. Even after working for 2 years I switched my profession from computer engineering to animation. I studied animation and then got married. So even after I actually switched my profession I am yet to start working in it. And it has been almost 2 years that I am staying in America on a dependent visa. Now when I say anybody I am an animator I wonder to myself “Really?!! am I?!” I have not even felt how it is to work in any studio.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            Choosing a profession can put so much pressure I had never known!  All I know that i changed my path because my parents had told me to always do something which I would love doing. And I definitely was not loving my IT job! It just wasnt me! Then what exactly did I want? What was it that I could do which would not feel like a heavy job to me? Animation had all the artistic feel to it and my 2 and half years of studying film making and animation was the most enjoyable and educative time of my life. And I knew that I have chosen the right path. Now suddenly after a gap of 2 years I feel distant to everything. Do i still want to go for animation or do I want to do something else.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    When I turn back from where I stand I see my juniors reaching heights. I see my friends having kids and starting a family. People have just dashed ahead it seems. And I am still standing at the position where I again dont know what I really want to do in life. All i know is I want to do something I would enjoy. And somehow I dont have an answer to that question again. In these 2 years of staying home and just performing the duties of a housewife i feel my skills have rusted. If I spend time shining them at what time will I do a job properly or rather reach any height?                                                                                                                                                                                                                            I believed that everything that happens is for a reason. But now I am a little scared that everybody is going ahead of me and I will be just left behind still thinking of what is it that I want to achieve. Too many questions and no answers yet from life. I wonder when I would get a clear view!!


A moment

Sometimes it just feels like the whole world is acting against you. I have tried to keep my patience and tried to do something in life. But  failures …. just break the heart.

After 2 years of working I left my job trying to do something which I would love. I joined an animation college and enjoyed studying there for 2 and half years. Got married and came to USA.  I had to manage without doing any work because I was in a dependent visa. But I could study.. So I applied for a college. And today i got a reply that I didnt get through the course I wanted but they could review me for another course, which i dont want. There has been a gap in my studies and work and i feel like I just dont know anything at all! That I have forgotten everything I studied.  I feel scared that I would end up doing nothing. That I have got used to doing nothing but my household chores which take up most of my day! I really want to do something but its fear that keeps me back.

Life is so uncertain. My life is hanging between going back to my hometown and running after jobs which trust me is quite a headache there.  Try to get into some other sort of education which is so costly that the moment I write this I just wipe away that thought. There is also a chance that my husband gets to go to UK and I could work there … if I get any! Its like so many choices are just spread across and when I stand and look I feel nothing will fall in my lap and everything will just vanish. Almost 1 and half years of mostly staying at home and acting as “the perfect ” wife .. I am bored. I do not have the eligibility to work and neither am I getting a college.

Well.. just a bit depressing for me. When I look back and see all the time that I have wasted doing nothing and procrastinating. I wont stop trying though.. I do believe that whatever has to happen best will ultimately happen. Its just sometimes I feel being sad can be justified! But I want to dream big and achieve and it looks like it will take a lot of time. I just hope things fall into place.


So many many recipes online!! Everytime I get bored I just google recipes and my God the numbers I get!! From the most complicated to the curious looking and easy ones the number one can find on the internet is unbelievable.  So I thought I would also try and post something on food!! Now nothing fancy… just something very easy !! I will write about ‘Maggi’!!!!!!

Now maggi noodles is something you will get in any Asian store in the Indian food section. Nowadays they have come up with many flavors but the favorite remains “Maggi Masala”. It is the tastiest and memorable food that I have! I remember having Maggi noodles when I was just a tiny tot. Indian students will be familiar with making maggi late at night at hostels!  Its just something which is so easy and filling and tasty!

So here I go! There are many many ways of making Maggi noodles.The most easiest one is mentioned behind the Maggi packet so i will tell you about the one I make most. Veggie maggi!



For 1 person serving you will need                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                           – Half onion chopped

– Half tomato chopped

– 1 small cup chopped green bell pepper

– 1 small cup of peas

– 2 green chilies chopped

–   chopped coriander leaves

– pinch of white salt and black salt

–  pinch of pepper powder

– one brick of maggi noodle


–  Take 2 tablespoons of oil in a deep bottom pan. After the oil is hot add chilies and onion to it and saute.

– When the onion becomes translucent add the rest veggies i.e tomatoes, bell pepper and peas( you can also add other vegetables like potatoes, carrots, cauliflower all cut in small pieces).

–  Add a little white salt and mix well.

– After 5 mins add 250ml of water. Once the water starts to boil add the Maggi Masala to it and mix. Break the maggi noodle bricks into 2 parts and add it to the mixture. Mix it and after 4 5 mins when the noodles become a      little soft you can try to separate  the noodle bricks into loose noodles. You will start smelling the delicious maggi you are making!!

– Add a pinch of black salt and black pepper to it and mix. It will take about 5 to 10 mins for the maggi to get done… You can add more water if you think you need it a little soupy. Garnish with coriander leaves and serve  hot!

You can even add scrambled egg to this and make egg maggi!!  Do get a packet of Maggi Noodles and try it!! There are numerous variations that you can do in maggi ! So give it a try!!

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(Few pics from the internet!!)

Do share your maggi if you make!!! Enjoyyyy!!!!

The Friendship Graph

Today I want to give a thought to friendship. I am not very old neither am I young.  And at this stage I feel that making new friends has become difficult. I had lots when i was in school and college. It seemed to my family that I had too  many friends. And I did feel rich that way!  Till I was studying my friend circle was excellent. Then I joined work. Ofcourse I made new friends there but my old friends did take a step back in priority, although we were connected by social media. I left my job and started some higher education. Lo and behold I had new and many friends again. After I passed out I got married. I came to USA and living the life as a housewife was kind of a very “sometimes happy sometimes irritating” feeling. For few months I knew no one here except for few of my husband’s friends. Then I joined a dance class and made 2 3 friends there.                                                                                                                                                                                                                                            I message my old friends sometimes and realize that all of them are in a different stream of life now. Married, having kids, going after a dream job etc.And even though I am connected through social media i do not feel that connected. I dont know what is going on in there lives and get updated when they put up pictures and status message on the internet. The two three friends I have are busy doing something or the other. I feel the bonding I used to have in college or work is absolutely absent now in my life. This decreasing graph of friends in real life and increasing online friends isn’t helping much! I miss my friends many times and wonder if they also feel that life has moved on too fast leaving good old relations behind. Why does it become difficult to make friends at a later stage in life? Or is it just because right now i dont have a job so I dont get to meet many people. Which is why I have this feeling?                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                                    I get jealous when I see a picture of a friend with many other friends travelling somewhere or meeting up. Guess friends are really important and it does get difficult to find them later in life. Many of my friends now have groups of friends who are friends of their husbands! And I never see them with there own set of old friends. Husband’s friends become more important than own old friends. After my marriage I could not make many plans with the friends I made here because all there husbands would probably have plans. I miss being with friends who would just be ready to join in and plan something. Guess that’s how life goes. I sound very depressed!!! Well I am just missing my friends and just want to say cheers to people who have held their friendship bonds tightly and keep doing so regardless of how life goes on! Kudos!

Precious people!

Its been a year I am in USA. And its my birthday today. Last year I was all alone, no friends, did not know anybody, husband was busy working.. and it was the worst day of the year for me. I missed my friends and all the get together I had. I used to get a very special feeling a month before my birthday! I planned out my party and felt excited ! Some years I was away from home but had my friends and some years I was at home celebrating with my parents and relatives.. It was such a special feeling!

This year…I am missing everybody again.. Although i have few friends here but still I feel alone and miss my near ones. My husband is still busy working… I want the day to pass away quickly…My friends message me how my day is going and what party plans I have. And each time I answer them I realize I miss them so much! This feeling is stuck and because I did not want to keep thinking about it I though what better way than to pen down my feelings!

There are so many people who don’t understand the importance of being near close ones. I was one of them actually! I thought I would be able to cope anywhere.. I am but still there are times when I really feel I could be near my friends and relatives. Just a trip down memory lane… with all those special times and I feel here I am lost. Well.. guess its just a pang of emotions being vent out!

I pray everybody values the times they spend with their close ones because someday we just realize how precious moments they were!! Till then… Happy Birthday to me!! 🙂